Month: March 2013
still not here, but signs of life
Last night I was going through the archives of my blog, trying to find the name of the hotel we stayed at in Istanbul with the fantastic view of the Blue Mosque (Hotel Uylan, highly recommend it btw) and I was so proud of what I had created. This amazing and funny compilation of all these unique experiences with accompanying photographs. Calvin with long hair, a totally bald and barely walking Camille, street food and street cats . . . I miss that blog and that blogger. But 5 years from now I know I’ll be just as charmed by the mundane and daily remembrances as I will be by the big adventures. The post where I describe missing Lucy and my inability to wash dishes without spraying water all over the kitchen brings me right back to my kitchen in Oman and Camille perched on the counter, “helping” Lucy and chewing on a raw carrot. A scene that would have been buried under a million other thoughts if I hadn’t taken the time to write it down. Which confirms that I will go back to writing it down, just not today. I’m still searching for my funny bone — I think I broke it and it’s no fun blogging without it.
I’m sort of waiting for a particular issue to resolve in my life/our lives, because until it does, everything I do is shaded by that. Life in the military means never making future plans with any real certainty, but I’m waiting for the bitterness to pass so my blog doesn’t become one big whine about the injustice and ridiculousness of it all.
But to reassure you that our lives aren’t all darkness and whines I’ll share this short exchange that happened in the car the other day:
Caleb, on the way home from school: “Mom, you’re going to be so proud . . . you know how I’m not Chinese. . . ?”
And then he couldn’t finish his story because Josh and I were laughing so hard and so loudly for the next 5 minutes that he couldn’t get a word in between our overlapping belly laughs. And as soon as I’d wind down, I’d think about how my son wasn’t Chinese and it would start all over again.
(When we finally got around to hearing the rest of the story, it turned out he got a check+ (basically an A/B or an Excellent) on an assignment on writing/drawing Chinese numbers. Pretty amazing for a kid who’s not Chinese!)
Don’t mind me, I’m not actually here . . .
It’s probably a really good thing that I’m not blogging right now. Life has irritated me the past week or so and it’s better that I’ve been keeping all my venting and imaginary conversations to myself. BUT, my mom asked in an email if Camille had done anything cute lately and it’s always better to show, rather than tell:
PS: don’t let the sweetness fool you — they are both loads of trouble.