I haven’t finished writing about our previous trip, but I’m already thinking about my next one. My close friend has had a lifelong dream of visiting Paris. Since she moves back to the US this summer she doesn’t have much time left to grab this opportunity while she’s still on the Paris side of the Atlantic. She proposed to a group of us that we take a long weekend and go together, without any husbands or kids. (Funny side note: between the 5 of us we have 21 kids . . . a case of crazy attracts crazy?)
Of course my immediate automatic internal reaction is to say, “No thanks.” And then spend the next few days coming up with reasons to reinforce why opting out is perfectly natural, reasonable and sane. But this time when my brain said, “No,” I tried to think of all the reasons why I should go, or might want to go. I’ve never had a desire to see Paris — I picture snooty people with great coffee, so that’s one out of 2 things in their favor. I could go for the great artwork and amazing architecture, but I’m more of a words person than one who falls in love with images. Yes, it’s a chance to get away with girlfriends, but honestly, I never crave that. Maybe the getting away part, but I don’t feel like my relationships or time spent with them is lacking. And an evening holed up in my bedroom with my favorite TV show and knitting while Josh watches a movie with the kids covers any and all escaping cravings.
But in spite of all those non-reasons, I’m going. Mostly because I question whether I can. To further silence the little voice in my head that wants me to doubt myself. For 6 days in February, I’m going to leave the confines of my little island and venture out without Josh: my passport and ticket holder, my navigator, my money holder, my translator . . . when we travel he does all the hard things and I just smile and keep track of the kids. I’m not scared of going, but it would be easier to stay home and I have to remind myself, “Easier isn’t always better.”
We were about to purchase tickets when someone mentioned the possibility of using frequent flyer miles. I asked Josh if he would check and see how many miles I had on my United account just in case. It turns out I had just over 35,000 miles — enough for a ticket to Paris. The most amazing part about that number is that I flew every single one of those miles. No credit card points, no bonus miles . . . just time logged in the sky. For someone who used to feel sick just looking up at an airplane flying overhead, that’s a pretty amazing thing.
I’m sure Paris will be too.