Month: September 2014
Nostalgia, 29 times over
Starting over
Somebody chewed me up and spit me out — my body is a broken down mess. The napping has continued. I think I’ve napped 5 out of the last 7 days, even after sleeping in until 9 am every morning (I haven’t gotten up to get the boys off to school since Josh came home. I’ve been sleeping through my alarm. Not turning it off and going back to sleep — not even hearing it to begin with.). And I don’t nap well. It’s the deep, drooling sleep of the dead. The kind that pulls you down against your will and doesn’t release for 3 hours and upon waking Rip van Winkle style, you realize it’s dinnertime, but someone else is already in the kitchen feeding the crew and you might as well go back to bed because you feel more hungover than hungry.
The headache started yesterday. They happen periodically and sometimes last for several days. It’s a side effect of being overseas and away from my beloved Dr. Gailey who gently realigned my neck, shoulders and jaw every month and kept me migraine free for almost 3 years. Now I pop Motrin, drink Coke, lie on ice and hope that this one won’t last as long as the last one (4 days).
I figure I must have been running on empty all summer and now I’m paying the price. I’m also realizing that while there are many advantages to not moving, there is one definite disadvantage: the very full calendar gets even fuller. Every two years I am freed of all obligations as I move to a new place with people who have no clue who I am and to whom I’ve made no commitments. It’s a mandatory break from responsibilities. Sure I don’t know anyone, but it also means I don’t have to coach, teach, coordinate, host or plan anything. It’s several months of blending into the crowd, sitting in the back row of church, or slipping in and out of somewhere without being noticed. I guess it can be lonely, but it’s also deliciously freeing.
This year though, I have responsibilities on the brain and checklists of people I need to meet with either officially or just face to face in the crush of post church chatter or in passing while on base. Did I bring the registration forms? Are we getting together on Wed or Thurs this week for the planning meeting? Am I supposed to notify the teachers by email or is someone else doing that? I don’t do much, but what is on my schedule is eating up all of my brain power.