We’ve been in Paris less than 24 hours, but I already feel like we’ve had the vacation of a lifetime. A full day of walking, biking, relaxing and eating. I want to spend my time here experiencing it rather than writing about it, but I want to absorb and remember as much as possible. We have 4 more days ahead of us and if they hold a fraction of what we experienced today, they will be days I never want to forget.
Month: March 2015
Today
It’s not every day that someone wakes up and is able to say, “I’m going to Paris today!” Unless you live in France. Then you probably get to say that all the time. But today is my day. Today I’m going to Paris. With Josh. The phone rang last night and when Josh answered it we could tell it was a work call. As he walked outside to conduct his work business in private Carter joked, “Dad’s going to Iraq!” because he knows he’s next in line to accompany me on this trip should anything come up that would prevent Josh from going. No such luck for him. In a few more hours Josh will be on leave and we’ll be on our way to the airport. Inshallah.
Our bags are packed, our maps are downloaded, I have written down the kids’ schedules and taped them to the wall so everyone can keep track of where they are supposed to go, the apartment is waiting for us upon arrival Wed morning and our dinner reservations are booked for the first night. After that, we have a list of things we might like to see and do over the next four days, but no schedule to commit to.
I’m planning on lots of chocolate croissants, cafe cremes (supposedly the French version of a cappuccino), crepes, cheeses, and walking. A little wine tasting, museum viewing, bike riding, picture taking, and conversations with Josh that have nothing to do with our kids or work. We’ll probably still talk about the kids though. It is our largest, most successful joint effort, after all.
For the next 6 days, I’m trading views like this:
paparazzi
A change of scenery
Technicolor
I was trying out an old movie the other day called Shop Around the Corner, the original version of You’ve Got Mail. It started playing and Camille, perched next to me on the couch said, “This show is too brownish. I don’t like it.” (me neither, girlie.)
Life has felt a bit brownish lately — though it seems a bit spoiled to admit that I’m writing this while waiting for our plane to take off to Oman. It’s the most “sameness” we’ve had in our military life. We’re finishing up our 3rd year here. Include the 15 months in Oman prior to that and it adds up to a lot of Middle East and a lot of sand. Part of it could be that life doesn’t change much from month to month, especially not this year. We’ve been sweating in January and February which makes these months feel like every other month. Same weather, same clothes, same, same.
I don’t want to leave, but I want to move. To do something different for a bit. Drive different streets and get lost somewhere green. For a while I’ve feel like life has been a lot like the beginning of The Wizard of Oz — the brownish part. The flat, Kansas, boring part. I think it’s mostly because of the lack of outdoor activities here: no bike paths, hiking trails, public beaches . . . nothing to climb that’s bigger than a small sand dune. All city, all the time.
I was remembering the other day how much I like driving on long open roads, sun shining in through my sunroof, and Abba or my other 80’s favorites blasting on the radio. Santa Barbara driving. Needless to day, I rarely like driving here where the rule of the road is don’t make eye contact and keep moving forward — it’s the only way to win the game of chicken.
I was trying to put my finger on what living here does to my brain and the closest I could come is it’s kind of like watching TV with a bunch of snow on the screen. A fuzzy picture, lots of effort to follow the story, and often there’s too much static to make it worth it. Inshallah living can easily become “why bother” living.
I write because I love telling stories, sharing information, and making people laugh, but I need a new setting to pull from. I’ve never been a fiction writer for a reason — all my made up places and names feel fake like there’s a neon sign flashing “THIS ISN’T BELIEVABLE” so I stick to what I’ve lived. I know I have a lot more adventures ahead of us in our last year, but it feels like I’m in a bit of a drought right now. Hoping I can wake up in Oz and see this place through new eyes.