day 50something: pregnant and overdue

I figured it out. I feel exactly like I did past the due date of each of my pregnancies. Tired, cranky, stressed, over the entire thing and just wanting to move on to the next phase. Of course there was nothing problematic about my pregnant state and I could have continued on indefinitely except for the fact that I had had a finish line in sight and now I was past it. And that made it intolerable.

I’m 50 lbs lighter now, but I’m still getting the same kind of phone messages: “any news on the job?” Or “when will you hear?” And the expectant looks and raised eyebrows when we see people in person might as well be saying, “haven’t you had that baby yet?” rather than, “do you have the job yet?”

So if you see me, give me a wide berth. Not because of my huge belly this time, but because of the weight of expectations that I’m carrying between my shoulders.